Spark of creativity

I've never really been a very creative person....dancing is just about the only artistic thing i have done, and even then that is more of doing qhat others have taught me rather than coming up with new things myself. Its somehting i never even tried as a kid....I still remember the drawing exams in primary school.....i could never really let go, do whateer i felt like.....always colored between the lines!!!! "you can draw anything you like"" they'd say....and i believe i always drew the same generic picture....a mountain the background hiding a setting sun, v shaped birds in the sky and in the foreground a silent river with a quaint little house on its banks and of course 2 stick-shaped people to complete the picture. i drew what i knew i could manage, drew to gain marks or approval....can u imagine a kid actually getting tense before an arts and craft exam?!!! Well, i did!! Its the only exam i ever stayed up late for!!!!

Even outside the context of exams, i don;t think i ever truly opened up my mind. I never star gazed....playing join the dots to come up with new figures. Dont ever think i did the whole "Look at the clouds and tell me which shapes u see" bit!!! Hell, now that i think about it, i was downright boring as a kid!!!hehe....Truth be told i havent improved much over the years. Considering my lack of imagination and aversion to experimentation, one would wonder at my decision to take up research. Don't worry, I am just as puzzled as you are at my decision and about my future as well. Keeping my fingers crossed on tht issue!!! :)

Anyway now that the mandatory walk down memory lane part of this post is over, let me get to what i actually did wanna write about!!! It was a normal weekday afternoon, and i was sitting in my room post lunch, before i headed back to lab. There i was randomly staring at the floor of my room when suddenly something clicked!!! Now the floor my room is this plain old stone with lots of different shades and marks that come with long use.....but on tht afternoon, my floor was suddenly not tht boring! Out of nowhere, i could discern shapes in those random marks. And unlike the fuzzy quality of my dreams, these were crystal clear. I could see faces, features, expressions...u name it and it was there!!! As i concentrated each of those shapes became clearer...emerging from the background. A boy and a girl in each others arms, a lonely woman looking longingly at the moon, an old man;terrified out of his wits; hiding in a corner against a mirror (his reflection visible in the background) and a soldier explaining a battleplan to his comrades!!!

It lasted for a few minutes at the most, but it was amazingly exhilarating!! I guess this is something akin to the buzz that people describe when they are high on drugs....they say its supposed to drive ur creativity way up!! Well rest assured that i didnt intentionally do anything to stimulate brain activity like tht....maybe the simplest explanation is just that i am going mad and hey we already knew that didn't we?!! :P But whatever it was it felt really refreshing....here's hoping creative bursts like tht happen more often...hell my work could really use something like tht right now!! Yet another thing i'm keeping my fingers crossed for :)